satisfaction

I have been coming up dry as far as blogging topics. I am sorry if you check every day in anticipation of what I am going to write. I guess the novelty of living at a camp is fading. Don't get me wrong, it is still gorgeous, just not new anymore. I have a wandering heart and I need things to change and be challenging, and when they are not I get bored and unmotivated. I watched a movie today where one of the characters described himself as being built to be unsatisfied. And I think that in American society we are socialized to be unsatisfied and to be okay with that. I don't want to be like that. I want to be satisfied every day, because every day is a gift. I guess being secluded from society has made me feel a little down, so I am sorry about the negative topics sometimes, but that is what has been on my mind. And I know in my head that there is a purpose for me being here, but sometimes my heart aches so heavily for home that it is hard to focus on the purpose. But on a lighter note: my brother is getting married in a week and I will be home! I can't wait. I am already packed (which, if you know how much of a procrastinator I am says that I am a little too eager I think).