the lost song...

I had the day off today. The first order of business was to sleep in! I relaxed in the morning and then went into Canon City for my bridesmaid dress alterations. It made me really excited for the wedding! I miss home a lot this time. I miss the comfort of knowing where I fit into the puzzle. But I won't grow without some change, so this is a very good thing for me. I am praying for some leadership opportunities to open up, and doors to open that will allow me to use my gifts here.

I also wrote a song today. I was feeling inspired by some things I wrote when I climbed up to Rainbow Lake, so I sat down and played around on the guitar and the song came. That's how it usually works for me, all at once. Usually there are a few revisions I make after some time, but mostly it comes all at once. Sometimes I am grateful for that, and sometimes I am not. I am gratefule on days when it happens because I feel I am one step closer to a dream; and on the days that I have writer's block I get frustrated. When I was a senior in college I heard that the primary songwriter for the band Switchfoot writes a song everyday. Now obviously they are not all winners, but some of them HAVE to be for him to write that much. So I decided I was going to do that, it lasted about 4 days and then I was stumped. Music may be a talent for me, and I may be able to write songs (only those who have to like them have told me they are good!), but I guess I have to live with a different technique for writing. Well I played the new song a lot this afternoon, refining certain areas and words, thinking that if I played it just one more time I wouldn't lose the tune. I played it one more time and after talkng with a good friend on the phone for awhile decided to watch a movie. I came back to play it again to make sure I had it, and it was gone. I can't find what made it work. Hopefully I will wake up in the middle of the night and it will come back to me (most of the time it does). I really liked the song and it made me confident in my ability to be not just a singer/songwriter, but a good one. So pray that it comes back!
I am planning on doing some research about possible places I could play; coffee shops, open mic nights, talent shows? We'll see what comes of it.